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Living Or Dying

by Childe

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1.
What’s this life about? Fucking dreams Living really fast now Or dyin’ slowly A deer in headlights A cornered dog Hay in a haystack Love and fear And I’m lost And I’m found The end waits In the ground But the sun Will still shine Even when It’s burnt out Death and violence Blood and fear Frantically searching For meaning here And I’m lost And I’m found The end waits In the ground But the sun Will still shine Even when It’s burnt out All these people wanna be, they wanna do they wanna see All these people gonna cry, they’re gonna hurt, they’re gonna die What’s this life about? What’s this life about? What’s this life about?
2.
#6267 01:46
A year has passed without me in it Cleaned up my act but I don’t mean it So discontent but I can’t show Unfulfilled is all I know It’s not what I am for It’s not who I want to be Time lost like grains of sand They got me in custody We toil We waste We’re torn apart by dying dreams We toil We serve We waste Fools in an eternal race The days fly by but I don’t feel it Stuck in place and overthinking I can’t go, no I can’t grow Ageing fast, nothing to show Ageing fast, nothing to show It’s not what I am for It’s not who I want to be Time lost like grains of sand They got me in custody
3.
No not today Anxiety Fills up my head I wonder what to say What can I do But ignore you? I’m an asshole is this news to you? I don’t mean to Be afraid But all this negativity’s Been following me And I don’t want To write this all off But I do it anyway Yeah I do it every day What did you say? Get off my case Suspicion shadows me throughout my day Where can I go? No one can know Isolation has never been a foe I don’t mean to Be afraid But all this negativity’s Been following me And I don’t want To write this all off But I do it anyway Yeah I do it every day No not today Anxiety No not today What can I do But ignore you? What can I do? I don’t mean to Be afraid But all this negativity’s Been following me And I don’t want To write this all off But I do it anyway Yeah I do it every day
4.
She goes to work Takes shit She goes back home and takes even more of it She's always tired So fucking tired One more day of this she might kill herself I don't even mean it But I guess I do This life is so much more fucked up than you Realise, you've pulled the wool down over your eyes Caught up in your own shit Soon you're gonna smell of it You're a waste of fucking space man He takes the bus Smells of piss Has another drink just to fuckin' deal with He's always tired So fucking tired One more day of this he might kill himself I don't even mean it But I guess I do This life is so much more fucked up than you Realise, you've pulled the wool down over your eyes Caught up in your own shit Soon you're gonna smell of it You're a waste of fucking space man
5.
Pass a drink, pass a drink (let go) Light it up, light it up (we glow) Get fucked up, get fucked up (oh no) We can break this plateau We’re stuck in place Life taken from us Let’s take it back (we can’t, we can’t) Have a laugh, have a laugh (let go) Make your fun, make your fun (we glow) Don’t lose hope, don’t lose hope (oh no) We can end this plateau I don’t want to be part of this game I don’t want to keep waiting for my turn I believe that it can be (better be better, be better, we let go) I don’t want to be part of this game I don’t want to keep waiting for my turn I believe that it can be (better be better, be better, we let go) We’re stuck in place Life taken from us Let’s take it back (we can’t, we can’t)
6.
Modern World 02:51
Where does the time go? I got none left but I got so much shit to do This modern world I didn’t ask for this but I can’t refuse Is this all that there is? This life, this place, this lack of will Is this all that there is? The years pass so fast Youth fades like a cheap, stick-on tattoo Memories clouded Good moments these days have never been so few Is this all that there is? This life, this place, this lack of will Is this all that there is? What little money I make Is not an indication of worth The friends that I fail to find Don’t measure my ability Cause somewhere inside me There is so much more Something screams in darkness With a will to be heard Is this all that there is? This life, this place, this lack of will Is this all that there is?
7.
Death waits with a smile. Fill my life With meaning To distract From the end (Creeping Death, Creeping Death) How much time have I got left? (Creeping Death, Creeping Death) Feel you on the back of my neck Don’t slow down Don’t stop to think Run on water Or stay and sink (Creeping Death, Creeping Death) How much time have I got left? (Creeping Death, Creeping Death) Feel you on the back of my neck (Death waits) (Death waits) (Death waits) (Death waits) Embrace this joke Don’t dispute Black death waits Days are few (Death waits) (Death waits) (Death waits) (Death waits) (Creeping Death, Creeping Death) How much time have I got left? (Creeping Death, Creeping Death) Feel you on the back of my neck
8.
Stay in, stay in, stay, stay in line Don’t move man No not this time Stay in, stay in, stay, stay in line Don’t draw attention Afraid to be different Too scared to be you They’ve got you by the balls man What you gonna do? Stay in, stay in, stay, stay in line Don’t move man No not this time Stay in, stay in, stay, stay in line, Don’t give them reasons Afraid to be different Too scared to be you They’ve got you by the balls man What you gonna do?
9.
Hey man do you know that you Live in a sexist world Where you’re born with more Than you deserve Because this world Yeah it’s all yours And every movie You can be the star Alone late at night You’ll probably be alright Have all the sex you want Encouraged; not a slut You can participate In macho rape culture You can have it all So this song’s for you I don’t need to Feel powerful (Systematic control) (You can’t let go) All this “maleness” Is so fragile (Systematic control) (Fear of the other) Don’t be what they want you to be In death we’re all the same Give life equality Hey man do you know that you Are sexist too? But I believe That you don’t wanna be So stop joining in And take a look around Hidden in plain sight Is the truth They say we’ve come a long way Women have more rights today But take a closer look Everything’s still fucked Oh the irony Of masculinity (Systematic control) (You can’t let go) So unsure Of what it needs to be (Systematic control) (Fear of the other) Don’t be what they want you to be In death we’re all the same Give life equality (Systematic control) (Systematic control) (Systematic control) Can you let go?
10.
Depression 02:22
You wake up early Something snaps and forces conspire You’re feeling angry That’s how it starts and then it’s too late I think it’s coming it for me I think I feel it man Fucking depression Don’t come near me again You’re late for work The third time again this week They’re pissed, you don’t give a shit Cause now it’s too late The fight is leaving my soul The light becomes too bright Soft darkness beckons to me I’ll never be alright I think it’s coming it for me I think I feel it man Fucking depression Don’t come near me again (Don’t come near me again) You go to bed It’s getting harder to get some sleep Your phone is dead It don’t matter cause it’s just too late
11.
Men In Robes 03:33
They talk of shadows and of ghosts and death They talk of things that haven’t happened yet They sit and listen and they bow their heads They’re living a life of fear yeah The story yeah it’s always the same Full of blood and death and we’re unclean We need to die, we need to sacrifice Our lives now for what comes next Men in robes but where are all the women? Get them young, indoctrinate the children Strange rituals, talk of life after death Hell, I just got here man Cause if even if we’re in agar plate A bearded giant looking over us It’s not a god, not a creator It’s just another organism In an infinite universe Just another creature wondering “What the hell am I doing here? I just wanna be somebody!” Look up at the sun there’s no one looking back at you I hate to break the news but course it’s true No second chances when you’re done with this life So make it your own, start living tonight Even if there is a God I didn’t ask to be born I’m not gonna bow and praise It’s hard enough trying to make it through the days Without the prospect of eternal hell And all the bullshit that they sell It would be funny if it wasn’t so God damned powerful (Men in robes - They know we know) Look up at the sun there’s no one looking back at you I hate to break the news but course it’s true No second chances when you’re done with this life So make it your own, start living tonight
12.
Life Is Fear 04:38
A therapist once told me that I’m clairvoyant Maybe he just told me what I needed to hear But I walk these streets I feel the pain and I smell the fear Baby I don’t want to die out here I search for hope in the ghosts that roam these streets They tell me that “love is all you’ll ever have, son” Sometimes I feel like I bit off more than I can chew How can that be true when there’s nothing that I do? We’re all just running from it We don’t know what we’re doing here We’re all just running from it Because life is fear I’m too old to change and I’m too young to want to I make being idle a god damned art form and I really want a release, I really need a release But I’m not doing anything about it at all People say “hey at least you’re not dying” And I say “well it’s not for lack of trying. But really though you’re just outright lying” Cause what’s the difference between a house and a hearse? We’re all just running from it We don’t know what we’re doing here We’re all just running from it Because life is fear We’re all just running from it We don’t know what we’re doing here We’re all just running from it Because life is fear

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The debut album from gnarly hardcore Irish punk rocker Childe!

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released September 19, 2014

Childe is Philip Elliott

Mastered by Stuart Mckillop at Rain City Recorders

Artwork by Hannah Hogan

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